Blues

Today I'm blue.

Various reasons. But damn I have the blues.

And I'd like my Dom to show up and beat me senseless. Okay, not senseless, but really beat my ass. I think I want him to go past spanking, and hit me with things. The paddle that I think he has, my hairbush, his belt.

Why do I think that would help the blues?

Does this make sense?

Endorphins I guess.

I don't even know if he wants this. I don't know how much of spanking is something he wants, and how much is just me begging him for it.

Does any of this make sense?

Lots of need showing here.

And what would happen after the spanking? Damn, I don't know. I'm not in charge, am I?