February

Sorry, I've been gone for ages.

And it's hard to come back here when I've been away.

I don't know where to start or what to say.

A little bit of information. A re-opening of the conversation.

He's been sick. Not very communicative.

It kind of freaked me out. Made me feel undesired.

Which led me to a bit angry and resentful.

So I decided to ask him.

I hinted at questions. I was subtle but I asked what was the matter?

He basically ignored them. He responded but... really not in depth. I don't think he got what I was asking. Either that or he thought, "Jeez, what a fucking nag, I can get that at home. THAT'S not submissive"

So, when he ignored, I retreated. Leaving room for him to chase me. Which he did not do.

So i asked more questions. Nagging more. If he hadn't thought it the first time, he almost certainly did the second time.

He did respond.

Reassured me.

Said all was well, except that he was sick. I have no idea what kind of sick btw.

Fuck he is shitty at answering questions. He dances around them. He's coy. He's keen to collect information, less keen on giving it sometimes.

I hope he gets well soon. I want to see him.